The Tremor of Anxiety Can Sometimes Feel Like Excitement

I took a break from Brunch, Naver Blog, and durumis for a while. Instead, I opened Hangul files or scribbled in my own private space. During that time, I consistently kept up with my Instagram reading records, but I needed a breather from the act of writing publicly. I think I needed a self-imposed isolation because various emotions were intertwined and complex thoughts kept flowing. That's how I arrived at September, a season when the heat begins to subside.

This morning, while taking a walk, various thoughts came to mind. They say growth is spiral-shaped, but sometimes it feels slow, leading to frustration. There are moments when I feel satisfied with my own relaxed pace of growth, but a sense of unease still lingers. Especially, the familiar tremor I feel before any new beginning.

As I started the first day of September, I asked myself, "What will I start now?" To embrace this season with a fresh perspective, I looked inward. I reflected on how past experiences and learnings have shaped my growth and contemplated what commitments I could make for my future self.

I've decided to stop confining myself anymore. I intend to honestly acknowledge my emotions and thoughts and seek out new possibilities within them. The tremor of anxiety can sometimes feel like excitement. I believe that the greater the anxiety, the more opportunities hidden within it we can uncover. I want to find a path to grow in my own way, at my own pace.

September symbolizes a new beginning. Along with the refreshing atmosphere this season brings, I want to renew my resolve and move forward step by step. I intend to observe the flow of my emotions and use that time to rediscover myself. I look forward to the changes September will bring and continue to write my story today.