I took a break from Brunch, Naver Blog, and durumis for a while. Instead, I turned on my Hangul file or scribbled in my own secret space. Meanwhile, my Instagram reading log continued steadily, but I needed a break from writing publicly. I think I needed some self-isolation because of all the mixed emotions and complex thoughts swirling around in my head. And so, September arrived, the season when the heat begins to subside.

This morning, as I was taking a walk, many thoughts came to mind. They say growth is spiral-shaped, but sometimes that growth feels slow, making me feel stifled. There are moments when I feel satisfied with my own, leisurely growth, but a sense of unease still lingers. The tremor I always feel on the eve of a new beginning is a familiar feeling.

As I started the first day of September, I asked myself, "What will I start now?" To greet this season with a fresh mindset, I looked within myself. I pondered how past experiences and learning have helped me grow, and what I can commit to for my future self.

I’ve decided to stop holding myself back. I’m going to honestly embrace my emotions and thoughts, and find new possibilities within them. The trembling caused by anxiety is sometimes similar to excitement. I believe that the greater the anxiety, the more opportunities hidden within it I can discover. I want to find my own path to growth at my own pace.

September is a symbol of new beginnings. Along with the refreshing feeling this season brings, I want to renew my commitment and move forward step by step. I want to keep an eye on the flow of emotions and use them to rediscover myself. I look forward to what changes September will bring to me, and I will continue to write my story today.